I’ll be very honest here today (and hopefully you can relate): there are some days that are just hard. Some days I don’t feel like being a mom or a wife and I just want some stinking peace and quiet and time to myself. I get annoyed and frustrated and a little resentful that I feel like I’m nothing more than a housekeeper and professional referee to two small children, as opposed to a grown up with a real purpose in life. And there are definitely times when I feel overwhelming pressure about our finances (or lack thereof).
Let me tell you, I am so awesome at working myself up into a snit. When I’m worried about something, or when something goes wrong, or when I’m focusing on all the yuck instead of all the yay, my ability to handle everyday life goes down the toilet, and I just sit and stew and worry.
So what does a girl do when it seems like things are rapidly falling apart around her?
It’s that simple, and it took me way too long to figure that out. Usually when I get in a Mood, it’s because I’m acting selfishly. I only care about ME…my situation, my financial worries, my fatigue, my unruly children.
My thoughts are all about myself. My eyes are on me. My focus is completely wrong. And because my focus is wrong, I forget that I serve a God who knows me, loves me, provides for me, protects me, heals me, changes me, and WANTS me.
Yesterday was not a great day at our house. The kids were fighting, I hadn’t had enough coffee, and overall things were just not jiving in our home. I felt like lashing out and shutting down and zoning out while watching a marathon of The Office on Netflix. But instead, I turned on some worship music. And my attitude completely changed.
My thoughts returned to Him, and suddenly the worries and annoyances that were plaguing my mind faded. And that worship didn’t just turn my day around – my kids got in on it too, and soon we were all dancing and singing and the mood was SO MUCH BETTER.
Worship reminds me about my WHY: I am on this earth to serve Him and please Him and bring honor to Him.
There are going to be bad days. There are going to be situations that seem insurmountable, but I serve a God who is in the business of taking care of His children….IF I relinquish control of my cares and simply worship him.
Here are my top five worship songs for when I’m worried and worn out:
- Anchor – Bethel Music & Leah Mari
- I Shall Not Want – Audrey Assad
- You Make Me Brave – Bethel Music & Amanda Cook
- Be Still My Soul – Kari Jobe
- Praise like Fireworks – Rend Collective